I used to read all Neale Donald Walsch’s “Conversation With God” books back in the day. Loved them. It didn’t bother me that every time I popped into the New Age section of my local Borders or Barnes and Nobles I was assaulted by the merchandising colossus it became with the attendant CwG calendars, CwG notebooks, CwG cards, CwG meditation books and CWG videos and greeting cards and whatnot. I suppose I first got into the CWG books because I had read channeled material since the late 1980s and thought there was something to the things these “spirits” were trying to tell us. I wanted to absorb the information that was presented and do something with it, and I was looking for answers that were not forthcoming: why was the world such a horrible place for most people, and why did it seem that the good was no match for evil. There didn’t seem to be an answer out there that could change anything in any meaningful way at all. Only methodologies of self-improvement or being “at peace” in a fucked-up world. By the time reached The New Revelations book around 2002 or so, I had already considered the idea that whoever or whatever was behind channeled books like Conversations with God were deliberately not telling the entire story, or even a story that made much sense.
King of the Angels: Kirael
I just couldn’t quite put my finger on it until I sent out for a book called Guide to the Unseen Self by Fred Sterling and “Kirael,” a “seventh-dimensional being who claimed to be King of the Angels. I listened to Sterling’s webcasts online from his Honolulu Church of Light, and he would always allow “Kirael” to speak. The topic of the day was the coming of the Great Shift , some sort of evolution of consciousness that would change everything. So I ordered the book due to the title, the Guide to the Unseen Self. But after I read it, I was totally disgusted. Were these beings twisting my melon, or what. There was absolutely NOTHING but recycled New Age – New Thought hooey. If i hadn’t spent 20 years researching esoterica, I might have been fooled by what was being presented was an original, pace setting book. I think I actually threw the book away. I felt like I had been duped. But I was too frightened to fully accept that there was some sort of deception going on. It remained a lingering doubt. The only reason I kept at it was by virtue of a single White Light experience that couldn’t deny. But I sure as hell doubted.
The Joker in the Pack: Crimson Circle’s Tobias
Kirael and other channelers promised the Great Shift was near. The Crimson Circle site which promulgated Geoffery Thoppe’s spirit guide,”Tobais,” promised their followers a “Quantum Leap” would occur for years before stating in 2007 that the Quantum Leap (of consciousness) had indeed occurred. Only it was the “Old Energy” being removed in favor of the “New Energy” which would somehow provide “new potentials” for beings. I began following Crimson Circle in 1999, shortly after it appeared online. Again, it took years of going through all the extended New Age baggage and symbols before I got sick of it as well.
I remember the day I stopped taking Tobias’ message seriously. I was sitting in my wife’s room listening to the latest CC podcast when Tobias suddenly described a dimensional scene of spirits feeding off the energies of those present within the gathering. “It’s okay. Let them feed,” he slowly intoned. I was thinking to myself, “What the hell is that about? Why are these guides allowing entities to feed off of people?” I listened to one more podcast and then stopped. It felt pointless, and I didn’t trust any of it anymore.
Which brings me back to Walsch. Over on the Spirit Library site, he has a running blog; the latest is something called “Way to the Soul.” In it he makes a remarkable claim:
The problem with Life is that we do not understand it. And that it why it has become so problematical.
Very little in Life is working the way it should be working, do you know that? I mean, it wasn’t meant to be this disruptive, this disjointed, this disappointing. It was never intended to be this difficult or this injurious or this challenging.
“It wasn’t meant to be this difficult?” You see, that’s what I thought, too! Surely this hell hole we laughingly call planet Earth wasn’t part of God’s Divine Plan? What in the hell are all these alleged ascended do-gooders doing with making this world a better place?
Short answer: nothing. They talk to certain people and some of them become fabulously well-to-do. Like Mr. Walsch. Who after all these years talking to and writing down the transcendent wisdom of Almighty God, and he doesn’t have any more of a clue to do about this world than you do. If you return to the CwG books, you will why; because there’s really nothing there but recycles platitudes and recombinant and discredited spiritual teachings. It should bother you that God is so derivative and lame. And inconsequential.
The first time I read Walsch his first book, being deep into New Age shit, I cried. I did not easily cry, but I felt understood, so it took me a long way to get myself where I’m at now. Although I do not put much value in his book anymore I do use it with muscle communication and replace words like truth with self-honesty, God with Self etc. and test if that’s correct in that particular case. Sometimes I read a bit around a word or phrase that I tested out and now finally I can see where I was duped and occasionally I even have to smile on my face or even laugh about the message this man is so spastically trying to get across. We moved on and it would be nice if Walsch could do the same, but I guess the money is a hard thing to move away from…
I kept reading his book, again and again, and finally decided that there were these hopeful points given that never remained, could not be sustained. It is like is lead no where, which is what is did!
And one dayI asked , “Where’s the constant?”
When I read something Bernard wrote, shortly after finding Desteni, that what is presented by the new agers cannot be sustained, I had a “Eureka moment” -as the lingo goes these days.
If I cannot generate it and remain constant than it is a bunch of BS.
Funny last night I was thinking about doing my first vlog on this very subject, what lead me to Desteni. Thanks for the support.
Rebecca