About Me

..and the reason for the Process: Self-Honesty blog.

It’s a long story. Let’s see if I can break it down to a brief summary.

I used to be a fervent seeker of knowledge and information, mainly of literature, the arts, music, philosophy, film and comparative religions. I was mystified why the world existed, why there was a “God” that existed, and why did I exist. My father’s side of the family left an enduring legacy of spiritual leaders down thru the generations, and I was certain, as a young boy, that I would follow the path laid down before me. My  mother’s side was fervent Catholicism. It appeared that a life within practicing some form of religion was in the cards for me, only it didn’t quite happen that way. I had read too much Kurt Vonnegut after I got out of high school. The  scheme of Jesus’ death on the cross as the salvation of mankind didn’t make sense to me as a child, and made even less sense as I grew into maturity.

In college, I experienced a profound mystical encounter with a White Light that drastically changed all my assumptions about the meaning of life. In this experience, I knew I could never really “die.” Oh, my body might not make it, but who and what I “was” would always exist. I wondered why such an experience fell on someone like me; unremarkable  in many ways, socially clumsy, and just beginning to get a handle of making it in this world.

And here I was, left with an overwhelming, yet meaningless event that spurred me on the uncover it’s meaning. I spent the rest of my life with my head in books and magazines, and when the internet came along, even more reading. Visiting countless spirituality sites where white-haired women claimed to convey the knowledge of angels and Masters from the “Other Side of the Veil.” After wasting many years reading recycled, fluffed-up, “Think Positive” jive, along in engaging and suffering from what I call, “Lightweeny Syndrome” behavior consisting of “Higher Selves” and “Ascension” belief systems.

None of what was presented as “wisdom” seemed to have any effect in making this world a better place. This really bothered me. Was it that the angels and the Ascended Masters were powerless to help sort this world out in a meaningful way? Because everything they seemed to communicate was either accepting the unacceptable nature of the world, or trying to ‘get away’ from it through various means.

After years of this vainly trying to sort through this mess, I said, “Enough!” No Deity or Cosmic Force is going to fix what is wrong with this world.

I put my spiritual search away, since it only seemed to run in circles.By accident, I stumbled upon a curious website called, Desteni Universe who claimed it could contact and have the recently departed speak through a young woman, who operated, they asserted, as an interdimensional portal. While this sounded like more Lightweeny talk, this was a claim I hadn’t really heard before. So I investigated. And this page is the result of that investigation.

12 thoughts on “About Me

  1. you are spot on with your posts. very helpful information it really sparked my interest contains some very recognizable truth. i am in the process of developing a global organization and your postings are great . your absolutely right there is tons of bull but I’m not the new kid on the block i have been at this for 50 years but recently had some great breakthroughs thanks my mail is ttiger69@gmail.com

  2. i just browsed chatting with the portal and that very much seems to be where I’m at rings very true. I’ve had recognition on Atlantis and the people or law of one and very amazing stuff on St. Germain and me and also some blue eyed light skinned indians that communicated thru telepathy. any light you can shed on these would be greatly appreciated it’s amazing the misdirectors out there .got to love your blog it’s the only one worth coming to.

  3. Tiger, regarding these experiences you’ve shared, I would suggest to you to release all that you have been influenced by of the past. It was all mind consciousness systems preprogrammed to enslave you with visions to seduce you into believing that there were mysteries and beings great than you.

    There is nothing greater than you in oneness and equality. So, leave the past and exist h e r e… That is your point of self-direction.

  4. Dear Friend

    There are many seekers who are curious to know more than money matters.
    If you are consistently curious;then you get drawn to the right kind of people(yeah like Law of attraction).
    If you are fortunate enough to escape the traps of crooks you do come across a person who has gone through this rigmarole and knows the way out of the problem.
    More often than not ;the way consists of looking within and the answer pops out with such force that it is satisfying and fulfilling too.
    If this happens ;as in the case of MR ECKHARDT TOLLE ;the results are there for all to see.

    What is the payoff ?
    Eternal happiness and Joy

    I will be writing more of this in my blog http://cbmisraa.wordpress.com

  5. Dear Friend,
    Mr Eckhart Tolle has not ‘seen any answers.’ He’s just making money selling hope and enlightened crap that justifies the System. Look hoow well he’s been rewarded by the System! He’s no danger.

  6. Dear Friend

    I do not know Eckhardt personally.
    Nor his financial status .
    If his appearance and answers strike a chord in his listeners and they feel truth in what he says;then it is an indirect way of confirmation.
    Take it or Leave it

  7. “If his appearance and answers strike a chord in his believers,” it is only because his listeners are as lost as Tolle is, since they’re coming from the same “spiritual seekers” blob.

    Tolle has remarked before that he thinks it’s a good idea to “transcend the body.” WTF? The only way TO transcend the body is to DIE. And he get’s invited on Oprah for that kind of cretinizing hooey? Sheesh.

    The Material World is the only thing that is real. Spirituality is just so much dressed-up, deceptive bullshit to collar people clueless people and make a buck off of them. From day one, it’s always been that way.

  8. Well, this has been an interesting site. Thanks for helping me find some sanity in some of the rather bullcrappish stuff I have followed over the past decade. I know I have bought and read all of the books mentioned of all of the authors so far and I am broke, unemployed, ready to lose my home, so you figure, who is enlightened by all of this?

  9. Hello Darryl, I am involved in a community that I believe people in the Desteni group might want to hear about. http://www.onecommunityglobal.org we have similar philisophies and are working on plans to create Susainable living communities using Earth Bag Homes, Straw Bale homes and the like. We are an Open source Free blueprints community, feel free to check it out and share it. I am loving learning about the Desteni process 🙂

    Rene

  10. Hey Darryl,
    I came across a picture of a hand with the word “Hope” written on it, reflecting from a passenger side car mirror. By inspecting the element of the picture, though it’s been traveling the internet for the past 3 years, it says that the original came from here. I’d like to use it for one of my posts about finding hope in suffering. Do you have a problem with that, or am I free to use it?

    My website is http://thesaltytrail.com

    Thanks.

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